It's weird sometimes, thinking about how quickly some things change. No one ever makes friends with someone and thinks "Gee, someday this person might not be my friend anymore"--but regrettably, there are some people who will leave our lives irrevocably, for good or for ill.
Which is why I'm wondering about Katie. Emily and I got into a minor tiff over it--the cause of my post the other night--and it made me feel really torn up over what happened with Katie last semester. I never like confrontation, even with the people who've done me wrong. What hurts is that a relationship that's dead and gone is still causing me problems with the people I love. It's going to be a stumbling block in my friendship with Emily for some time, just because of my nature, who I am. I guess it kind of stings that Emily doesn't "get it" when she said that Katie and I could "still be friends." I wanted her to at least understand how I felt, how betrayed and humiliated I had been by Katie's behavior, but I couldn't even get that much. For all the compassion that gets touted these days there are still a lot of people willing to tell you to take it like a man and suck it up. Which I'm willing to do--but not at the cost of my pride and well-being, which I would certainly sacrifice if I went crawling back to Katie at any point.