Tuesday, November 15, 2005

So my horrid poetry professor finally redeemed herself. Let me explain her shortcomings to you as succinctly as possible:

1) She has no "tactful" setting.
2) She has no mental filter between what she is thinking and what she says. So, for example, a typical sentence about Emily Dickinson might run something like this: "She's writing about the *gasp* and the *whoosh*. In all of her poems, you've got the *gasp* at the beginning of each line and the *whoosh* at the end of each line. Right? [insert manic, inappropriate laughter here] I mean, you know what I mean? Anyway...oh, by the way...[digression into a topic about some other poet she has a crush on] "
3) She is hostile to people she percieves as having ideas about poetry that are in any way different from her own. (And Chem majors, too.)

I could go on, but I won't, since, as I said, she has redeemed herself in some manner. Today, she brought in a CD player and a Leonard Cohen album. She wanted to give us an idea of the character layers that form in some poems, and how multiple characters can be combined into a more abstract entity, such as a city or place. To that end she had us read The God forsakes Anthony, by Constantine Cavafy. She then played a song off of Cohen's fairly recent album, "Ten New Songs."
The song is called:

Alexandra Leaving

Suddenly the night has grown colder
The god of love preparing to depart
Alexandra hoisted on his shoulder

They slip between the sentries of the heart

Upheld by the simplicities of pleasure
They gain the light, they formlessly entwine
And radiant beyond your widest measure
They fall among the voices and the wine

It’s not a trick, your senses all deceiving
A fitful dream the morning will exhaust
Say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Then say goodbye to Alexandra lost

Even though she sleeps upon your satin
Even though she wakes you with a kiss
Do not say the moment was imagined
Do not stoop to strategies like this

As someone long prepared for this to happen
Go firmly to the window, drink it in
Exquisite music, Alexandra laughing
Your firm commitments tangible again

And you who had the honor of her evening
And by that honor had your own restored
Say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Alexandra leaving with her lord

Even though she sleeps upon your satin
Even though she wakes you with a kiss
Do not say the moment was imagined
Do not stoop to strategies like this

As someone long prepared for the occasion
In full command of every plan you wrecked
Do not choose a coward’s explanation
That hides behind the cause and the effect

And you who were bewildered by a meaning
Whose code was broken, crucifix uncrossed
Say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Then say goodbye to Alexandra lost

Say goodbye to Alexandra leaving
Then say goodbye to Alexandra lost...


Wow. Can he write or what...? The way I see it, any professor who plays this for her class and shows them Cavafy's work to pore over in comparison to this richly sorrowful hymn, can redeem at least some of her shortcomings. Maybe I can forgive her hostility towards me at least for giving me the oppurtunity to add another song to my life.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Two posts below...the happy one on the top, sadder one on the bottom. Consider yourself warned.
Got into most of the classes I wanted. It's strange...for some reason, I always feel like I should be getting more credits for the courses I'm taking. I guess it's the lab--you always feel cheated for only getting one credit for three hours' worth of work.
Anyways, here's my Spring '06 schedule, pending the discovery of any mistakes on my part (then again, 8:00 Biochemistry is a mistake no matter how you cut it):


Monday
Chemistry 414: Biochemistry (8:00 - 8:50 AM)
Chemistry 302: Physical Chemistry II (9:00 - 9:50 AM)
History 122: American History (11:00 - 11:50 AM)

Tuesday
Anthropology 319: Archaeology in the Near East (11:00 AM - 12:20 PM)
Chemistry 392: Physical Chemistry Lab [discussion] (7:00 - 8:50 PM)

Wednesday
Chemistry 414: Biochemistry (8:00 - 8:50 AM)
Chemistry 302: Physical Chemistry II (9:00 - 9:50 AM)
History 122: American History (11:00 - 11:50 AM)
Chemistry 392: Physical Chemistry Lab (1:00 - 5:30 PM)

Thursday
Anthropology 319: Archaeology in the Near East (11:00 AM - 12:20 PM)

Friday
Chemistry 414: Biochemistry (8:00 - 8:50 AM)
Chemistry 302: Physical Chemistry II (9:00 - 9:50 AM)
History 122: American History (11:00 - 11:50 AM)
Chemistry 320: Introduction to Research (3:00 - 3:50)


I mean, call me naive, but it seems like this should count for more than fourteen credits. Oh well. At least the History and Anthro classes get the last of my GER's out of the way. Those pesky GER 4's have been bugging me for a while. Which means next year is pretty much upper-level Chem classes and whatever elective courses I happen to want to take, plus either Biological Antrho or Psych as a Natural Science for GER 2B.
That Biochemistry class, though...it's going to suck. (The time, that is, not the material.) At least Coleman is teaching it and not Bebout. To give you an idea of the disparity: if Coleman is like a kindly uncle, then Bebout is an angry spinster aunt. Freshman year she took off ten points from your labs in Orgo if you were more than five minutes late.
But yeah. This should be an interesting semester. Here's hoping I don't have to drop anything.
R.I.P. Moe, 1999-2006




















What lies below should explain the situation pretty well. I don't want to dwell on it too much at this point in time.


Dying Alone

I wish I could have been there when you died.
Part of me knows it's better this way;
Would it really make me feel better to have been there
When your neck snapped,
When the blood flowed from your lifeless mouth
When the dogs left your broken body on the ground?
Would seeing your suffering have eased my own?

My bitter self mutters
That dumb cat
Would have gotten himself killed anyway.
Nothing you could have done, kid.

My kind self murmurs
You gave him six years' worth of life
That he may not have lived otherwise.
Be glad that he's at peace.

My rational self muses
Cats don't live that long anyway,
And he's been pretty sick--well,
At least it was...fairly...quick.


Quick and painful.

And when my father found you
He laid you to rest in a grave of red Virginia clay
With a headstone made of cinderblocks
And my old tire swing.
So when I go home for Thanksgiving
I can give thanks that your fragile bones are buried
Beneath the emblem of my childhood.
Rest well, and do not wake,
For those above you are doomed
To a much greater pain.

Thursday, November 03, 2005



Maria and I at Normal Formal. I know, I know, it's a little blurry...but I kinda like the lighting better. Plus there's no red eye. And the pseudo-time-laspe stuff in the background is pretty cool.